To My Knees Will I Fall – Gratitude

by Darla on April 14, 2009

in Life

This morning after about an hour and only getting madder and madder as the day moved forward I realized that if it didn’t stop it was going to get ugly and there would be no one to blame but me, myself and I.  Big Comfy Couch would often say, “who made this big mess”. Yep it was me.  Clean ups are never that much fun especially when they are emotional wreckage.

So I fell to my knees for the second time today admitting surrender and pleading for help of the most divine variety.  The rest of the day was okay thanks to the grace of God.

As I walked this evening and had an opportunity to pause and reflect.  The thought came that, this is what grace is all about.  We surrender and ask for help in the most humble manner, grace fills in the gaps.  Tonight I’m humbled by that and know that tomorrow will be a better day for the realization.

While I pray it is something that I often struggle with.  Mostly because I don’t know what to say.  Often the same old repetitions happen, yet tonight it was a very emotional experience.  The inspirations were flowing and my words were the way that I always wished that my prayers could always be.  The mornings are so rushed to get started and by the time I get to bed at night I’m asleep before my head hits the pillow.  Some how it doesn’t feel like I’m giving it my best.  Perhaps that was the difference tonight.  It wasn’t rushed nor was it the sleepy self speaking, it was a calm end of day communication and gratitude for the blessings of the day.

All that I can say is Thank You God.  Thank You for making a symphony of my day.  It is my prayer that next time it will be easier to fall to my knees and before the wreck happens.

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